And right when you think its safe.

I am having a difficult time here.

I'm so "i dont give a fuck-ish" lately. The only thing bugging me is the ex. Because I legitimately miss him. But then I dont give a fuck about that, because in essence, he aint shit. He wont be what I need him to be, do what I need him to do, no matter how down for him I am, he cant be down for me like that. It just aint in him.

Maybe the lack of options have caused this lack of giving a fuck.

Same old shit, I got niggas. That aint the problem. Its the fact that I'm a quality chick, and all I got is quantity. Men without potential are just dick... and I got some of those in a box under the bed. No need to encounter the mass bullshit for an appendage. One that might not do the trick at that. I'd rather put my money on the champ. And the champ's name is Honey Bear.

Anyway.

So yeah. The emptiness has engulfed my black ass, and I just dont give a fuck. I need to give a fuck, but I can't. I see the ex, I miss him, but I know its bullshit so I dont even bother to say too much. Aint no sense in traveling backwards. Mu'fucka proved what he was made of back in October or whenever the hell I left him. Ain't shit changed.

Fuck, life sucks sometimes. But then its not really sucking... its just empty.

Empty sucks.