Undecided.

So I don't know if I should tell him.

I've been debating for the past few hours. I'm not even working, and I have so much work to do. But I can't concentrate.

The thing is, I know it's too early (ahhh, thank God for Jaheim... they're playing "Backtight" on Launchcast *thumbs up*) for me to be thinking like this. And I don't want to open my big ass mouth because I know what's gonna happen. He may think he's ready to deal with it, but he ain't. And the minute I tell him, that shit is gonna be blatantly obvious. I'm sure it's better if I dont tell him.

But fuck, man. What am I supposed to do?

And then I have to question myself... maybe I don't love him. Maybe I'm just a crazy bitch trying to latch onto something.

Its so funny how I can see solutions to everyone elses damn problems, but mine continue to elude me.

Thing is, I feel like I love him. And I want him to know that I love him. But I'm scared he's gonna freeze up if I tell him that I love him, because it's too fuckin early. He's gonna say it's too early and then I'll have to do him bodily harm. I don't want to do my beautiful man bodily harm. So I guess I'd better keep my damn mouth shut. But that is gonna be hard.

Fuck. Lemme go finish working now.