I'm sayin though...

I'm not even lonely.

"Odd" doesn't even begin to do this shit justice.

I'm not missing CA in the slightest. I miss my other ex again since I've left CA, but I don't miss his ass.

So he's freaking out because he thinks I'm pregnant.

This dude is an asshole. I already told him the chances are slim to none since I'd barely stopped my period 2 days before the damn condom broke. I'm not gonna let his punk ass worry me none. He's too damn pathetic, and he's too full of shit. Him and his fake considerate persona. I ain't even trippin off this shit, I strongly doubt that I'm knocked up. And now, I'm about to say probably the most scanless shit ever to escape my thoughts:

If I am, I ain't telling his ass.

I'll be damned if I have a bitch nigga's baby. This aint even about the "married first" dream. It's about the fact that this man is a bitch ass version of my dad. And I'll be damned if I subject any baby of mine to a punk ass sorry muthafucka for a dad. A selfish, fulla shit, fake ass, punk muthafucka. Not my kid. I'm not passing down any of his iniquities on my damn baby. Fuck that shit. I'll be damned, you hear me? DAMNED.

Now he wants to be concerned. Now he's all upset about the "possibilities". Mu'fucka, it ain't no damn possibilities. Fuck you. I wouldn't have a baby by your spineless punk ass if you were the last mu'fucka alive. If yours were the only sperm left. Me and my Honey Bear would die together, and so would the human race. Fucka propagation with punk bitches.

If he'd have only remained the CA that I loved. But noooo, he wants to make the bitch switch. Well don't worry about a thang, asswipe. You will NOT blame me or anything I birth into the world for ruining your life, or any other bullshit that is playing out in your mind. Sorry ass summamabitch. Fuck outta here with that martyr ass, patronizing bullshit.

So I'm throwing some extra in the air. I need to be a normal woman this go round... no statistical anomalies, please. I need my reproductive system to function exactly as it should according to every physiology book I've ever been forced to read.

Well I'm going to bed. I've been playing on BP... shit's fun sometimes. I'm bored as fuck. So I'm out.

Oh yeah. Fuck CA.