On dangerous ground and borrowed time
Second post in a matter of hours. Wow. But its because I am only so discontent.
See the problem is, I don't like being challenged. I feel like this ex is challenging me. He knows that I really dislike him, but for some reason find him irresistable. So he's going to torment me until I cave in.
He sounds so sexy on my voicemail.
I hate it. Shit, I hate him. I also hate the fact that I have to distance myself from UC. But honestly, there's no way I'm ever gonna get a man if I'm thinking about him. God'll figure I ain't ready, and He'll let me be stuck with the Stalkalistics and the Wrongs until I can get myself together. It's just the UC is everything the Wrongs are not. I'm drawn to his confidence and his kindness. Just like everyone else is. But I swear, the man confuses the shit outta me.
Case in point: I don't think he was gonna tell me where he went last night. I wonder why? Usually he tells me when he's gonna be doing something fun because he tells me all the drunk stories that go along with said excursions. This is of his own choice, I don't quiz him. He volunteers information to me all the time. But this time, when I asked him how it went, the first response he gave was "[homie name here] told you I went, huh?" Maybe it was a big ol secret. I just can't figure out why it would be a secret. I mean, the event was nothing major. In fact it was less major than some of the stuff he's told me in the past. But it wasn't something he voluntarily told me, unlike other things that should have been considered more private. Maybe he didn't want to mention it because there were heffas present at the place.
See, I already know his opinion on the broads in attendance, but he doesn't know that unless homie told him that I'm now aware of this. Maybe thats why he didn't want to tell me. Maybe he thought I'd feel weird about him. But I'm like, whatever. Them bitches are closer to him than I am, so why shouldn't he kick it with them? He's a grown man. And there are a lot of people in this world prettier than me, but there's obviously niggas that think I'm fine, so what he thinks of them broads only has so much impact on my life. I can't worry about it since I'm in no position to change it, right? If he ends up with one, so be it. I'm in no position to really put my official bid on him, considering I'm all the way on the other side of the damn country.
Whatever. He's confusing. I don't like being confused. He's confused me twice in a matter of days. That's not very nice.
And now, I've got the old old ex to contend with in addition to this. I need a new life. BOO.
See the problem is, I don't like being challenged. I feel like this ex is challenging me. He knows that I really dislike him, but for some reason find him irresistable. So he's going to torment me until I cave in.
He sounds so sexy on my voicemail.
I hate it. Shit, I hate him. I also hate the fact that I have to distance myself from UC. But honestly, there's no way I'm ever gonna get a man if I'm thinking about him. God'll figure I ain't ready, and He'll let me be stuck with the Stalkalistics and the Wrongs until I can get myself together. It's just the UC is everything the Wrongs are not. I'm drawn to his confidence and his kindness. Just like everyone else is. But I swear, the man confuses the shit outta me.
Case in point: I don't think he was gonna tell me where he went last night. I wonder why? Usually he tells me when he's gonna be doing something fun because he tells me all the drunk stories that go along with said excursions. This is of his own choice, I don't quiz him. He volunteers information to me all the time. But this time, when I asked him how it went, the first response he gave was "[homie name here] told you I went, huh?" Maybe it was a big ol secret. I just can't figure out why it would be a secret. I mean, the event was nothing major. In fact it was less major than some of the stuff he's told me in the past. But it wasn't something he voluntarily told me, unlike other things that should have been considered more private. Maybe he didn't want to mention it because there were heffas present at the place.
See, I already know his opinion on the broads in attendance, but he doesn't know that unless homie told him that I'm now aware of this. Maybe thats why he didn't want to tell me. Maybe he thought I'd feel weird about him. But I'm like, whatever. Them bitches are closer to him than I am, so why shouldn't he kick it with them? He's a grown man. And there are a lot of people in this world prettier than me, but there's obviously niggas that think I'm fine, so what he thinks of them broads only has so much impact on my life. I can't worry about it since I'm in no position to change it, right? If he ends up with one, so be it. I'm in no position to really put my official bid on him, considering I'm all the way on the other side of the damn country.
Whatever. He's confusing. I don't like being confused. He's confused me twice in a matter of days. That's not very nice.
And now, I've got the old old ex to contend with in addition to this. I need a new life. BOO.
posted by ~~~. at 2/02/2005 10:35:00 AM
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