Lunchtime break

I would say "Afternoon Delight", but that would imply that I'm getting some dick, which I most certainly am not.

Anyway.

He's off to visit more people this weekend, so I won't be talking to him. I usually build up my strength against him when he travels (which I'm learning is quite often). I need all the strength I can get. Although I will admit, the unnamed situation is giving me more of a resolve to hold it down against him. Even yesterday in my silly glee at his ridiculous phone call, it remained in the back of my mind. Not to mention I received a certain indication that my assumptions about this situation are indeed correct, instantly quelling my initial giddiness at said phone call.

So is this it for the infamous Un-Crush?

I hope to God it is, honestly. I cannot want a man that everyone else wants (and has better chances at getting). That shit is tiring and nerve wrecking. I truly need to be over him before the situation blows up. And I know it will, because thats how shit happens to me. One minute it's nothing, next minute the whole world is upside down. Therefore, I need to be completely done with all thoughts of he and I and soon or else I will have an enormous problem on my hands. The more I think about what's creeping up on me, the less I want to deal with him. That is a good thing. I need to be done with this once and for all.

Thats the hard part... the once and for all. Lemme get back to work now.